Slow end of October.

I make less mistakes when there is enough light to see and I slow down.

10-26-25:

A picture of Vala , sketched in blue. She is looking to the left with her paw up but flopped down near here maw. She is looking towards the text to the right that says " I want to learn to slow down when it gets tough. - A. Sylvaster Valentine" — ” I want to learn to slow down when it gets tough.” – A. Sylvaster Valentine

I always seem to rush when I am making a mistake or the situation is stressful. The issue with going faster is that I will make a mistake.

10-27-25:

Here we have a fluffier looking Sketch of valla facing to the left and looking to the right with her paw stretched out behind her. The text reads "It's far to dark in the early mornings. I need to turn on a light. I wasn't letting myself see it. Dawns sunlight had illuminated my summer. Svihawu Bless." -A. Sylvaster Valentine — “Its far too dark in the early mornings. I need to turn on a light. I wasn’t letting myself see it. Dawns sunlight had illuminated my summer. Svihawu Bless.” -A. Sylvaster Valentine

I was going to notice the seasons changing daylight eventually with as much as I do before dawn. The thought hadn’t occurred to me that I had gotten used to the twilight before dawn adding that much light to my desk setup. The light from an extra lamp or two at 4:30 AM changes how mornings feel entirely.

10-28-25:

A picture of valla sketched facing forward with here paws up looking like shes asking nicely for something — -A. Sylvaster Valentine

10-29-25:

A sketch of Valla looking to the left with here paw raised to her maw and posture in concern. looking to the right the text reads " I'm feeling that fear again the shame of mistakes, emboldened by pen. I want to make magic in silver pencil. The artists shame has stopped me before. I can have no shame before Svihawu, its all quite something. Svihawu Bless this Journey" A. Sylvaster Valentine. — ” I’m feeling that fear again. The shame of mistakes, emboldened by pen. I want to make magic in silver pencil. The artists shame has stopped me before. I can have no shame before Svihawu, its all quite something. Svihawu Bless this Journey.” – A. Sylvaster Valentine.

I stopped drawing years ago once. I had felt I wasn’t able to produce good art on demand fast enough. I felt back then that I was expected to be a certain level above past accomplishments. I think, I wasn’t able to see how much time some of my best things I had made up until that point had truly taken me to finish. I definitely wasn’t able to see how many unsuccessful drawings I had been standing on either.

Pushing through my own self doubt with a belief in Svihawu utilized like this. I think this faith, this idea of self acceptance, is healthy for me. I definitely feel better being allowed to make mistakes.

10-30-25:

Here we have a sketch of Valla looking to the front. She has her tongue out and has a hold of the red margin with the lamp drawn on it. the text reads "Wow, We made it to the last page. Svihawu Bless." - A. Sylvaster Valentine. — “Wow, We made it to the last page. Svihawu Bless.” – A. Sylvaster Valentine.

I have filled an entire legal pad with Valla. This is the last page and the fluffy marsmallow of a prairie wolf shape has picked up the margin, all packed up and ready to go.

We have a thing later, I will just go as myself. My dress code ensures that today is just about the only day of the year I seem to fit in. I might wear my old fursuit, might not.

10-31-25:

Here we have a sketch of Valla, looking forward. Her expression is that of someone who is unsure of how to feel. Blank. but she is cute and her winter fluff is really showing with how she is sitting. — -A. Sylvaster Valentine.

Nothing pleasant happens to werewolves on Halloween. Personally I feel the entire “holy day” is orchestrated to make fun of and mock conquered or othered cultures.

We were originally planning to dress up to hand out candy somewhere. Recently though, something bad has always been happening every time we go out. So we didn’t.

11-1-25:

Here we have a blue sketch of Valla. Shes definitely been eating with the season all that candy probably. Facing to the right with her left paw gesturing toward the back and looking forward. the text reads "Hey though, I like seeing you every morning, that is pretty great. Svihawu Bless." - A. Sylvaster Valentine — “Hey though, I like seeing you every morning, that is pretty great. Svihawu Bless.” – A. Sylvaster Valentine

We decided to play it safe and stayed home, good thing too. My partners vaccines really punched them down hard this year.

“Hey Though, I like seeing you every morning. That is pretty great, Svihawu bless.” This is true, I do. I made blueberry muffins so I could share them with you.

I felt like I was recovering all week and I wasn’t even sick. My stress isn’t over, I added no new problems, but there wasn’t really a break to recharge in. I am simply grateful this season has my favorite flavor of Midwestern weather. Cold, Gray.

Svihawu Bless.
“Prairie Wolf”
A. Sylvaster Valentine

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